Objects of My Isolation

Headphones – I used to have to wear these most of my waking life. When I went out, I’d wear them for my Misophonia, and when I was at home, I’d wear them so whatever I listened to wouldn’t distract my roommate. Now that I’m always at home and my roommate is gone, I never really need them. But I find myself still listening to most things through my headphones because I’ve gotten so used to the way it makes everything sound.

Seaweed – My roommate never came back to campus after Spring Break, so she left behind a lot that wasn’t worth mailing back. I’ve inherited several things from her this way, including a lot of food that I typically wouldn’t buy. I never really ate seaweed plain before this, but now I have a huge 10-pack!

Whiteboard – This whiteboard has been on the door of my room since freshman year, but since the quarantine it’s been repurposed for 15-251, the course for which I’m a teaching assistant. I use it to hold office hours and recitations (sometimes paired with a document camera). It’s actually pretty effective.

Microwave – Previously, I got most of my meals from campus eateries or local restaurants. I used this microwave to make tea or sometimes reheat leftovers. Now I’m using it multiple times a day. From pasta cups to mug cakes, much of my food comes out of this microwave.

Blinds – Most of my time at home used to be during the night. Since there wasn’t sunlight, I didn’t need to open the blinds, and so I closed them for my privacy. They probably went months without being opened. But now I sometimes open them to look outside or just let light in. I also find myself much more aware of where the sun is during the day because it affects the lighting in my video calls.

Webcam – I didn’t use my webcam for much before this, so it always made me a little uncomfortable to see that little green light turn on. I’d have to perfectly stage every video call. Now I’m 100% over that. I’ll hold a meeting from my bed while wearing my pajamas, and that light doesn’t phase me at all.

Microwave – Previously, I got most of my meals from campus eateries or local restaurants. I used this microwave to make tea or sometimes reheat leftovers. Now I’m using it multiple times a day. From pasta cups to mug cakes, much of my food comes out of this microwave.

Shoes – These were and are my go-to pair of shoes. I used to spend most of the day in them, but now I’m almost always barefoot. When I want to go outside, I have to get out these shoes and a new pair of socks, and it feels like a major event.

Polyhedral Dice – My dad and sister and I have been playing D’n’D together over Skype since before the pandemic, but since it started we have a lot more time. We’ve spent many hours playing it in the past few weeks, and I look forward to our sessions as a much-needed social time. We each have our own set of dice to roll from our respective locations.

School ID – This used to be extremely valuable to me. I used it to buy food. I needed it to get into my room (and several other academic buildings). It was a library card and a bus pass. I’ve had it with me almost every day for the past 4 years. Now most of its applications are gone. I still take it with me when I leave my room, but it’s a lot less useful otherwise. And I’m getting bummed out by the expiration date.

New Object Connotations

Left to right,

1)My Laptop Keyboard – My new primary method of communication, under more pressure and battery than usual

2)A Headphone – Living in a small apartment with 4 people, music is the only way to be able to hear my thoughts amidst the chatter. Usually, I rarely use headphones at home, since I lived alone when I was at school. I could trust home to be a quiet space to gather my thoughts without interruptions.

3) Window in front of my desk – My primary source of sunlight and peephole into the outside world, now forbidden.

4) My planner – Less so for managing a busy schedule, and more to keep me moving throughout the day and not getting stuck in a black hole of contemplation. Reminders of little things like drinking water and getting up are mixed in with actual tasks and activities I would normally do routinely, but have less urgency in today’s digital world.

5)Butterflies on an adventure – A reminder that while humans are struggling, nature is healing, if not flourishing. In a way, we’re giving it space to breathe.

6) Mail – Going to the mailbox is a new quest carrying correspondence from the outside world, although not particularly informative. A potential imposter, carrying the virus.

7) Kitchen Table- A gathering point of the only true human interaction.

8)Trash can – Removing waste has become a chance for fresh air I now look forward to. I’ve also made a habit to call one particular friend to say goodnight every day on my walk to the dumpster.

9) Giant Panda – A weight that helps me calm down enough to sleep.